Nothing seems to be simple anymore. Technology is supposed to make it easier for us to keep in touch, but I feel overwhelmed by the number of ways in which I can be contacted and bombarded by all of the messages I receive. I have to make lists upon lists of who to contact first because I haven’t returned anyone’s calls in awhile. I don’t know why I haven’t, either. It’s not like I have a real excuse. I just get overwhelmed and brush everyone aside for awhile, but (being a slow learner) I have realized that this all becomes a positive feedback cycle broken only by me getting on top of my responsibilities.
I’ve made it complicated for myself. Now, with just a few days left to make all the phone calls I need to make before running away to the woods for the season, I’m feeling the crunch of not having been diligent all along with returning calls. I will have limited internet access in the near future, too. For the whole season. Why do I do this to myself? I don’t relish shirking my responsibilities, but I tend to do it more than I realize at any one time.
I’m going to make it less complicated for myself starting tomorrow. I’m getting on top of my “call back soon” list and then writing my thank-you notes from graduation. I dumped all the useless paper trash in my room in my parents’ house today, so tomorrow I can finish packing for MCC/Americorps training and moving to Maine. I’ve got a new list (compulsive list-maker that I am) and I’m ready to streamline some more. Why didn’t I do this sooner?
I guess things will be as complicated as we make them.
